Hello Beautiful Womyn!!!
Forgive me for my absence...............I know we all live very busy lives and I'm so glad to be back here with you all now. For the record watching the movie 'Kissing Jessica Stein' always makes me cry at the "Mom scene" which for me is another blog in itself lol! But I do love that movie..................can you tell I watched it tonight lol?
Well we're moving full steam ahead with the wedding planning and my bestie found the dress..........yes THE DRESS. I must say that it is truly breath taking and she will be a stunning sight; not only because of the dress but also because she's naturally gorgeous (trust me I know women ;) )............the bridesmaids dresses are beautiful also and they can definitely be worn again she did a great job.
So here I am now still needing to get measured so I can make sure my dress fits properly and I need to have it ordered ASAP so the bride can check one more item off of her to-do list..........Unfortunately, I need next Friday to get here so I pay for it credit is not an option! I'm not sure I can convince her that I can wait until then however I do find myself developing alternative plans to pay for the dress even as I type because all I want to do is assuage any pressure she may be under...........
Is it wrong for me to live vicariously through her wedding planning? Or am I just jealous of her heterosexual privilege? Yeah, I think I'm just a bit jealous too..............there I said it. The pink elephant in the room has a name so now we can move on! Now I've heard that jealousy is a sign of insecurity but the Pharcyde said, " .........A hero is a sandwich and a manwich is a meal......a marriage is a paper are they fakin' or for real......what's the deal dapper......." (that lil excerpt was from Passin' Me By a Pharcyde, a true hip hop classic and if you don't know it, please pause and go immediately to youtube, listen to the song, post on your facebook page for your friends who never put you on and return then to this blog!) Well I'm for real!! I'm playing for keeps and I don't need the paper to know or prove that my love is real but I sure do want it......................just because I'm in love with a woman doesn't mean my childhood dream of my wedding day died.
I'm not the woman who says I don't need all that for just one day, because I do, I want all the whoopla. It's like the person who says, "I don't want a big rock for my wedding ring; I'd be afraid to wear it..........." Trust me in all my years in luxury jewelry sales (all I'll say about that is everything came in a little blue box) no woman ever said I want to return this ring because it's too big.........the person who says that never thought they would get their dream ring in the first place.......I personally never thought I wouldn't!
I want to eat the top of my cake a year later, I want to dance our first dance and toast and party with the people I love the most sharing the love of my life with them as we celebrate our marriage.......our union..........our life together....................I want the fairytale and I don't belive I'm asking for too much. Now all I need is for the entire country to get on board!
More to come.
Peace,
Adge
My best friend had a wedding about a year ago it was so beautiful and she was too. I can honesty say I was living vicariously through her wedding. It was basically my wedding. We did everything together, we spent months planning not was wonderful. I can honestly say a bit of jealousy may have come but it was gone with in minutes of the wedding starting. As a women who believes heavily in wanting that fairytale and knowing that I'm deeply in love with a women it will happen for both me and you. That wedding, the cake, the honeymoon, the celebration with friends and family is all to come. I know I can't wait to start planning my wedding.
ReplyDeleteThanks for sharing this Passion7...........we will both have the fairytale and I can't wait to start planning either! Well I guess I can wait until I get proposed too! Order and discipline right? Thanks for your insight; hope to hear more from you!
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Adge