The count down continues........day 139...............

Greetings world!

So a friend of mine asked me today why am I doing this blog.................. so I told her I wanted to create a space for queer womyn like me to have a place to voice their feelings when placed into spaces that are considered "straight" by those who are closest to us i.e. family & friends who do not connect with our lifestyle therefore failing to realize that sharing my life with a wedding to my partner is a fantasy of mine that I never thought of as much until my bestie got engaged. I mean, I never not wanted to get married just because I wanted to marry a woman.

I think it's also heavy on my mind because this is the one person who I shared all of those little girl dreams with; we've been friends literally since birth and there's no place else I'd rather be than helping her get to her special day but I can't help but wonder will I ever have one too? And yes I get that this isn't about me but this blog is about how I am working through these feelings of being the right hand in a straight wedding as a queer girl. It's amazing how easy a thing can seem until it's real.

Like I told you all yesterday I don't think my folks have shared with any of their friends how proud they are of their potential daughter-in-law (even though they should because she's awesome, everything they wanted me to find in a man and more in a slightly different package), when the news first circulated about my besties engagement I asked my Mother if she was planning on sending out "the good news"  about my engagement and the response was silence...............so that's why I blog in a nutshell! 

So moving forward.......... my bestie is going through the most ooohhhh to be the bride to be! Not only did she just move to a new state last Friday and is starting a new job on Monday all while planning a destination wedding she is a true super trooper. Today we finalized the bachelorette party!!!! She is going to be a beautiful bride and I am excited so we were definitely productive today as always more to come!

Peace,

Adge